We were spending a nice time together talking about things and stuff, talking what we have been doing so far, career, religion and some silly topic such as is satellite is exist? Haha lol. But yes, we had fun together and by time she said that she has something else to do later at night after 7 pm to meet her friends at one of the rooftop in Jakarta, I am a bit disappointed cause I can’t spend time any longer with her today. But who I am, I am not her boyfriend, so just let it cool maybe next week I can see her again and I can spend time with her more. We had our drink and ready to end the moment. She ordered her taxi first and while waiting for the taxi to come I asked her to go to watch movie with me next Saturday? She said maybe but let’s talk about this later she said, we can plan about it. I said okay and her taxi came and I watched her gone. I went home and there’s nothing on my mind except how happy I felt today to spend time with her even only few hours. I looked back to the photo taken on my phone and see which of the best photo of me and her today. I found one, I look so happy on that photo and maybe her too. I went to sleep and wake up tomorrow morning and start texting her back. And here the nightmare comes, I asked her what she is doing, what time she will go to the wedding today (yes she had wedding invitation today), and show her yesterday photo that I think the best, but…. Her response really really cold like she’s not interested to talk with me today at all. I have no idea what just happened with her, did I do something wrong yesterday? I think she looked just fine yesterday, nothing indicated that she is disappointed or didn’t like our meeting. Whatever maybe just let her alone right now and text her later after she is done with the wedding. Of course, I can’t stop looking at my phone and hoping a miracle text from her. But of course, it’s never going to happen. I went to see my friend to discuss about something and by the time I am wondering if I just need to text her again and asking what she’s doing right now. and yes, I did that and texting her around 4pm. Worse become worse, she read my chat like 3 hours later and no response at all. I seriously have no idea, why? Is she really that busy? Okay maybe busy just wait until night. I told my friend about this, and their advice is just to wait cause maybe she is busy and try text other girl. No, I don’t want to text other girl, I just want to text her, I got feeling to her but not the other girl, not that simple. Shit, my brain can’t stop thinking and my mood really bad. I waited till night still no response, tomorrow morning still no response, I expected she will reply “hei.. sorry yesterday I was so busy”, just at least that, Then I will be fine. But no fucking single response. So, I don’t want to text her until she replies. But it won’t happen cause I desperate to text her. Okay lets’ do this, the other day she asked me to sing goblin ost song, how about I sing that song and send to her tomorrow. Okay this idea might works At night I took my guitar and sing this song. Really, I had problem cause the song is in Korean, no English version, but I don’t care, I tried my best to record the best, and I don’t know I think I got one and I sent to her. An hour later she replied and nothing much, it’s very cold again not like before. I replied to her that “you must be like the movie so much huh?” and… yeah, she didn’t give a single reply, nothing…. I am really disappointed and there is something in my brain saying that, just give up, this girl doesn’t deserve you, you don’t deserve the silence, she is rude, she will never fit you. But still in my deepest heart giving me a chance, let’s do another shot by asking her to watch movie on Saturday. bersambung ke part 6...
